Only in HIM we find True Rest

So I really dont know where to begin. Well I guess I can begin in end with God, since He is Alpha and Omega. So i guess I can end with Him too, which is good cause I was planning on it. :) He is so good to His children.

If any of you have been updated in the last 3 days you would have heard that I was sick. It began with post nasal drip and a burning throat, which was later accompanied by a fever and then body aches that made it painful to stand, sit in a car, or even lay down in bed. Thus, I spent the past 2 days in bed. In the past 2 days I have probably spent less then an hour off of my bed that is on the floor. In that time I was miserable trying to see how God was being glorified in this. Why would he allow me to fly half way around the world and spend 2 days getting aquainted with my ceiling fan.

This morning I woke up and showered only to find that a severe case of nausa was now added to the mix. So this morning I had and antibiotic, a pain killer, decongestant, and because it is friday a millaria pill, and an anti-nausa pill, which all of these did nothing! who would have thought that a drug coctail like this along with pepto and coke and crackers would only make me feel worse???

So today was spent holding back tears as I laid in bed alone wishing I felt better or I had family or friends to support me. I e-mailed people and even chatted with my dear aunt and my parents a few minutes before they went off to work. But nothing made me feel better I only got worse and worse. i was cold yet skin on fire and sweating. then i would get so hot and there was no relief. I couldnt get up because if I did the world would spin and the nausa would increase to an intolerable level.

So after hours of rest and not moving and no relief i put on worship music soft and shut my lap top off and laid their tears streaming down my face in the darkness. I was completely beat, helpless, and scared. i just started to pray. I have been learnign so much with all this time in bed i have done alot of reading about a relationship with Jesus and being in His presence and about how it is all about LOVEing HIM!

So I am laying in the dark just praising Him and proclaiming How i love Him just because He is EVERYTHING. and because on my own I can do absolutly nothing. that is one thing i saw while being so sick was that in my flesh I can do nothing, I cant eat walk nothing without HIM. so if I cant do any of that I sure as well cant love a perfect God who I cant see. So I asked Him to help me love Him. Slowley i felt a tad better to the point where I was praising Him sitting up. (Which was a big deal for me) and then I decided i wanted to be ready to fall asleep so that I could fall asleep in is presence not worrying about taking my 2nd dose of antibiotic or brushing my teeth- which now i realize i shouldnt have worried about that anyway. So I got up, took my meds and went to brish my teeth. I was brishing and worshiping Him and was in awe that He had given me the strength to stand sturdy. So i made myself gag by accident and then i was hit with a wall of nausa but i didnt feel alone for the first time all day I felt peace. As the nausa got worse and worse I spoke out loud "I trust you God, I trust in you" Who knew you could praise and worship the Lord and throw up simultaneously!!!

It was such a freeing experance its like He was waiting for me to realize I could do nothing, and everything and everyone I run to in life for support could do nothing. He wanted me to run to Him in my time of need. He waited till I exausted all of my comforts and ran to Him in despiration and when I was there he fifted my head and said what took you so long! He rid me of everything- harhar pun very intended, and gave me peace.

Yes my body is exausted but I have learned a beautiful lesson. God is Love and the way we walk in a relationship with Him is LOVE Him. and when u love someone you run to them in your time of need. God loves us more then any family any txt or e-mail or prayer or person ever could and He wants to lavish that upon us but He does not want to be second to anything. God is a jelous God. So we have to shut the laptop, turn off the internet and phone and not rely on earthly things and praise Him in the all circumstances. He gave me Psalm 23 "The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever." as I began to praise Him befor the throwing up even happened. It gave me a comfort that I was not alone and even though I had no control over my body or my circumstances, He had control, He made my body, and Has all the power to heal and restore in His timing. And looking back, even with the weekness learking in my body and well aware that tomorrow I could feel dreadful again, I am praising the Lord for the lesson He taught me. In the last post I mentioned i was asking the lord to help me prioritize my life. Man He took me literally, He showed me the relief I put first and long to have comfort me pale in compareison to Him. We serve a Jelous God! Who is Worthy to be praised!!!! so Be blessed as I have been blessed. I am going to go to sleep now resting and praying God's healing power in my life, Because in HIM WE FIND OUR REST!!!!